Some days, you want to just lay back in bed, huddle under the covers and forget your to-do list.
I’ve had several days like this, this week. And it’s only Thursday.
Between cancellations and losing three (count EM, THREE) recordings, I wanted to punch this week right in it’s ugly face.
Not to mention, I wondered myself if what I was doing was worth it. Is any body really going to listen to my babbling? Was pulling my hair out trying to recover a file that apparently didn’t exist worth putting myself out there to be criticized? Was swallowing my pride and asking three people to redo interviews, taking another hour and a half of their lives for my project, really going to gain me success?
Failure is hard. When things go wrong it sucks to make them right again. It takes work and dedication, all in the face of unknowing.
But it is okay to question. It is okay to doubt. It is even okay to every once in awhile scream and shout and bitch and complain.
As long as tomorrow (minutes or hours) you are going to stop and get back to work.
I’ve given myself permission to feel the disappointment this week. The anger. The frustration. Then I’ve made myself cut the shit and get back to what matters. I remind myself why it matters and what I want to accomplish. I see all the excitement of the people I’ve connected with who are on this journey with me. I see all the possible people I’ll help become happy in one of the most important areas of their lives. Because of me. Because of my failures. Because I didn’t give up, even when I wanted to.
So, scream it out. Give in to the feeling. Let let that shit go and get back to it. You started this for a reason. Make that reason louder than the things that aren’t going right.
When you do, great things will happen.
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Originally post on Medium.com. Find me there at: https://medium.com/@samantha_28